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Dear Future Self,
What are your intentions? Right now, I think I’m most focused on growing and experiencing, and changes present a wonderful opportunity for that.
Still, today feels like a difficult day for me because it’s the first day of sharing my new home with three other people for the next three weeks, and I’m still a little insecure when it comes to stepping up for myself and setting my boundaries.
I’m proud, though, that I know I have them and can recognize them, and that I don’t think the whole world is going to fall apart if I set them and talk about what I need.
When you read this, I hope this will be much more natural for you, and that you’ve had plenty of experience to learn to speak from your heart without fear. I also hope that you remember everything that we’ve been through.
Do you remember that time when we lived in Ukraine? We were still showering every day then, and after our shower, the lovely woman who we rented the room from brought us coffee.
It was always when we were just getting dressed. And every morning we received a full-body scan and a very loving comment of „You’ve gained weight“, or, „You’ve lost weight.“
She was better at picking clothes that fit us perfectly than we’ve ever been.
We felt extremely cared for in that year.
Intention matters so much when it comes to words and looks. We never once were embarrassed, it never felt like criticism or judgement, just contact and care.
It felt like love.
I’m extremely grateful for those times. Are you too?
► My Future Self Journal ▼
Why do I write to my future self? ◼︎ ●
Self-Actualizing, personal development, the search for more options, finding out how to actually live our best lives, or simply experiencing growth and change for any reason, might feel weird, scary or uncertain. Yet impermanence or becoming is something we all share.
I started to write and publish some diary post a while ago, and looking back at them even a month later, I felt like I should rewrite them because my perspective had changed so much.
But that would be like trying to erase the most essential part: the journey.
We don't just arrive at a certain point, we struggle, fight, fall down, run in the wrong direction, come back, stand up, fall again and yet continue.
We laugh, love, enjoy, paint, sing, dance, discuss and find ourselves surprised by the unexpected. With every experience, we spiral up and can dive into deeper levels of experience and understanding if we allow ourselves to do so.
This series is a documentation of a journey into the unknown.
It shows how vulnerability and fear can be present, and welcomed, and not stop us.
It's about admitting mistakes and acknowledging how easily we can be wrong, no matter how mindful, present, in tune and aware we are.
We'll never know until we try.
But most of all it's about celebrating life in all its different forms and shapes, colours and sounds and tastes, in depth and lightness - to witness life's endless beauty and continuous unfolding.
We are all a part of life's magnificence, the question is: How much of it do we allow ourselves to enjoy and experience?
The more we open up and liberate ourselves from what we thought we knew, the more we allow to see things in new ways and the more love we share, the more magical life becomes.
May we open our present with presence and let our future selves continue to experience life wholeheartedly.
May my honesty inspire yours and show you that there is nothing to fear. Everything is working out for the greatest good. ❤️
With lots of love for you and this world,
Verena
