RELATIONSHIPS – Week 1 – Pt. 3

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On Self-Pity, Jealousy and Agency


Dear Creatrix,

As I’ve said in the introduction, I am as much a student in this course as I am a teacher.

I’d looooove to be with my soulmate in a close and intimate way and create a relationship where I feel I can be myself and feel loved for who I am.

And the reason why this is not yet my reality, is, that I am not yet the person, who allows for that to happen, though I guess I’m getting there.

(And this is really not how I wanted to start this lesson, but it is very true, so here we go).

The things we would like to have but don’t have yet – will only come to us once we are ready for them – and finding out what we want, and then getting ready for that is what we do in the CREATRIX School.

When we are on autopilot and have not yet found clarity about what we actually want, we only get what we’ve learned from those around us.

And that is most likely not what’s best for us or anyone else.

As you might know, I lived in the countryside mostly by myself for more than two years.

During that time, I had the chance to really detach myself from society, general opinions, trends and a lot of what’s currently going on and begin to tune in to what makes my soul happy and sing and truly meet myself and begin to explore what else is possible for me.

I know I wouldn’t be here like this today, without having had this time and these insights.

How far I moved myself away from “regular life” I’m only noticing now, as I moved back to a city and started surrounding myself with people more often.

But we can completely detach ourselves from everything we know, to become more free and conscious, wherever we are. We just have to have the wish to do so.

With the right guidance and questions and patience to look for the answers within, everything can and will become possible for anyone.

But we have to make that a conscious choice.

Studies found out that we are the average of the five people we surround ourselves with regularly.

We only use around 5% of our brain capacity consciously – most of the time we simply repeat what we hear, or have heard growing up.

So, when we hear the same ideas being shared, experienced and expected, it’s easy to think that if everyone is saying, seeing and experiencing the same thing, it must be true.

But it’s not – we’re all just copying each other and feeling safer in the group than daring to feel into our heart and inner knowing and walk the path that is right just for us.

You are here, so I assume you like to do things differently as well.

You are choosing to get to know yourself and to become your true and authentic self, your qu_ing self, so you too can live a free life and experience living in heaven on earth.

The wise Krishnamurti noticed this already many years ago:

“It’s no sign of health, to be well-adjusted to a sick society.”

We all get to decide, if we want to continue to adjust to a system that makes people unhappy and sick, or if we would like to walk on our own path confidently and happily.

If you are ready to go deeper and find out what you truly wish for and desire in terms of relationships and also when it comes to deciding how you want to live your life in general, then today’s lesson will be very useful for you.

Simply start by looking around yourself.

Do you know any people, your friends, your family, who are really truly happy and content with their lives?

Do you know anyone who has certainty that what they are doing is for their own good and the highest good of all?

And then we can move to the next set of questions:

Do you really want to continue to do the same as the people around you?

Do you really need their approval?

Or could you possibly even inspire them and support them in finding more happiness for themselves by prioritizing our own?

The choice is always yours.

When I lived in the countryside, the people “I hung out with” were my teachers; people who’ve written books about philosophy, neuroscience, quantum physics, spiritually and the like, and they were and are the most hopeful people I’ve ever surrounded myself with.

They had the certainty, through experience or study, to know what they were doing and why, and they inspired me to follow their example.

None of them had an easy life.

All of them had to go through heartbreak, near-death experiences, extreme illness, loss or other hardships to really discover the strength within and confidently walk on their own path.

It really does not matter where you are now and what you have experienced until now.

🌈 You have the power to create your reality.

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Practice: Your Daily Cards

Practice: Your Daily Cards

Let’s pull some cards

To be honest, I was quite sceptical about Tarot and Oracle Cards – until I started pulling daily cards every morning and every evening and wrote them down for a while.

Purpose – Week 1 – Pt. 1

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Welcome to a New Chapter in the CREATRIX School

Let’s begin to explore the purpose of life and our unique role in it.

In this lesson we will just start by looking at where we are at right now, find out what answers we are looking for and get a bit in the mood of this chapter so we can open up to exploring our mystical side, our purpose and our callings in the next four weeks.

Purpose – Week 1 – Pt. 2

Purpose – Week 1 – Pt. 2

Let’s find some clarity

We have a lot to explore this month, so we will use this lesson to find some clarity around the terms we will be using and start diving into the meaning and the purpose of our lives, as well as all the other terms.

And I share a bit about how I got here and how I discovered my callings and the purpose of life.

Purpose – Week 1 – Pt. 3

Purpose – Week 1 – Pt. 3

Why you are whole and perfect as you are

In the last lesson, we looked at the purpose of life and all the other terms we are going to fill with our own unique meaning in this chapter – and today, we will look at ourselves and how we can possibly give ourselves a new, more powerful meaning as well, by discovering that we are perfect already just as we are.

Do you agree? Do you think you’re perfect – yet?

Purpose – Week 2 – Pt. 1

Purpose – Week 2 – Pt. 1

Tools for Self-Recognition I: Astrology

In this lesson, we learn how to use our curiosity and our bliss, as well as our astrological birth chart to find out more about ourselves, our wishes, our personality traits, what drives and motivates us, what we like about ourselves, and what some of our challenges are – and then we see how we can begin to resolve them.

Purpose – Week 2 – Pt. 2

Purpose – Week 2 – Pt. 2

Tools for self-recognition II: Numerology

After finding out more about ourselves through Astrology, we focus once again on what else is possible for us, when we begin to look at what’s great about ourselves instead of what’s wrong with us ;).

It really makes such a huge difference.

And then we use numerology to recognize ourselves even more and to consider the possibility of inviting in a new (nick) name into our lives, to help strengthen the qualities we would like to cultivate more from now on.

Purpose – Week 2 – Pt. 3

Purpose – Week 2 – Pt. 3

Tools for self-recognition III: Wheel of Colours

Let’s dive a little deeper into getting to know ourselves.

This time we will use the Wheel of Colours to recognize more aspects of ourselves, and I’ll also show you how to use your Wheel of Colours to support you in the changes you’d like to create in your life.

Purpose – Week 3 – Pt. 1

Purpose – Week 3 – Pt. 1

Visualise yourself!

I bet that you already see yourself in many new ways and that you are getting more confident and proud of who you are already.

Today, we are going to add one more exercise to help us see our excellent qualities and superpowers and to find out how to best use them for the highest good of all.

Recipe: A Unique Birthday Cake

Recipe: A Unique Birthday Cake

How about something special?

Have you ever made a birthday cake that says something special about the person it is for? That represents their uniqueness, their preferences, something about their lives? Maybe now is the time 🙂

Ritual: Would you like to rewrite your history?

Ritual: Would you like to rewrite your history?

When have you ever felt disempowered?

In this ritual, we do something profound.

We travel back in time to correct misunderstandings and misperceptions we’ve experienced in the past, and I’ll show you how to rewrite your history, so it cannot negatively impact your presence and future any more.

Practice: Foot Massages

Practice: Foot Massages

The topic of this chapter is RELAX/ Family, right?

And maybe the relaxation fell a little bit short – so let’s counteract that with some foot massages.

Today is the day we will start to treat ourselves extra nicely, maybe create a new family tradition, and learn how to best massage our own and each other’s feet.

Family – Week 1 – Pt. 1

Family – Week 1 – Pt. 1

Welcome to a New Chapter in the CREATRIX School

In this chapter of the CREATRIX School (or 4-week course) we will explore how we can transform our family relationships and create new possibilities for ourselves and future generations.

Today, we start by opening up to the topic and finding out about how we really feel about our families.