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How would your qu_ing-self live? 🐯

Dear Creatrix,

Congratulations, you are almost done!

But before we part and open up to the next topic, we have one last practical exercise ahead of us, which might be the most important one – especially if you decided that you do want to move to a different place and want to start manifesting that new place now.

If you have done all the previous exercises and practices, you’ve learned a lot about yourself and your home, what you like and don’t like, what you assumed and what you will choose consciously from now on – and you will need all of that for this exercise.

I do hope that the most significant realization was that nothing material or external will ever bring joy, love or safety to your home, you are the only one who can do that: by finding the love within yourself.

And if that love is not fully there yet, we will do more to stimulate that in the other chapters of the CREATRIX School, as this is an ongoing process, as we are forever spiralling up.

But you now know that, potentially, you can begin to fill your life and your home with lovely people and actions and items that make you and your soul happy.

It’s never the items itself that make us happy, it’s the intention with which we invite them in that does.

While so far in this chapter, we tried to find and practised ways to make peace with our current homes to have a place to come back to, while we enter on a longer journey to get to know ourselves fully, it is now time to think about your dream house and living situation.

It was important to find that peace first, though, because as long as we find ourselves in a state of longing for something else, it actually becomes much more difficult to follow our dreams and our bliss because the urgency keeps us from seeing clearly and acting wisely.

And if we link our happiness to being somewhere else first, we arrest ourselves in our development until an imagined moment, which might not ever happen or bring us the happiness we long for at all.

Yet, with the acceptance of what is and the active effort to find joy and love in it, we can dream as big as we want, and also start working on making those dreams come true.

In the introduction, I promised to tell you a story, about how I manifested my old house.

And I think now is a good time to share it:

When I was still living in Berlin, with my partner, I went to the countryside for a month to work and be in a different environment. And I started to learn more about intention setting.

So one of those days I sat down and asked myself how I actually wanted to live. I looked around and thought, I would kind of like to live in a place like this. It’s quiet, lots of nature around, and a lot of space to be creative.

And then, three months later, I did actually move into that exact same place, something I did not think possible at all when I first sat down and thought about it.

Of course, if I had a chance to avoid the things that had to happen to make this possible – I would have, but often we get what we need and not what we want, if it’s for our own greatest good. For me, this included a break-up, that was very painful.

But looking back, I couldn’t be more grateful for it because it gave me the opportunity to become my true-self, my qu_ing self and learn what I needed to learn to become my most powerful, healthy and happy me — yet.

As I mentioned before, l had a life-long dream of renovating an old farm house once and while it still isn’t finished, I did a lot of work there, that made me very happy and that added to a hopefully wonderful future for that old house and the skills I learned I can now take to other projects with me.

And finally, it made me realise that countryside living isn’t the right thing for me right now.

I want more people and more culture around me. I love to be inspired – and while nature can be very inspiring too – I love to see inspiring work by other people. Without trying it out, I might have never known, and always secretly wished and longed for it.

And when I moved back to Hamburg, my experience was quite similar.

Because of this, I’ve really learned to go with my gut feelings on this by now, and I hope you will take the time to quiet down enough to do the same, because we don’t have a better guide than our highest consciousness, and it will always lead us to the best possible place.

At some point in late 2022 or early 2023, I decided that I did not want to stay in the countryside, because I realised that I wanted more inspiring people near and around and also more arts and culture and people who know and love me and who I love to be around. But I wasn’t quite sure about where to go.

Many options came up, and in between my parents’ house popped up again and again. I brushed it aside each time because it felt like moving backwards.

So I made other plans, arrangements, tried out other directions, but nothing worked out.

And then I came here and everything started to calm immediately.

It was really fascinating to see. I got so many messages from my ancestors, telling me I’m needed here, and I can tune in with them so easily here, it really blows my mind.

So, as long as we know some things that we want and make some efforts to explore our options, the universe will really take care of the rest, and do all it can to help and point us where we are meant to be in that moment.

I know now, that I’m guided and well taken care of if I listen to and follow my intuition, and that only the best possible things will happen from here.

Now, I can happily move on with more knowledge: to a place where I can also put my feet on the ground and grow my plants, while also being close to other people I love and those I haven’t even met yet and can easily reach interesting events, exhibitions, concerts and shows.

My future is in my hands and I can’t wait to see how it will surprise me.

Your future is in your hands. What will you let yourself be surprised by?

You know what you need to do to make your dreams come true. The only question that remains is: Will you dare?