Have you ever worked on something with all your heart?

For the last three years I’ve been working on the courses for the CREATRIX School, because it was a deep urge from my soul to share these messages.

I sent the first lessons out as emails in 2022. 💫

Then I edited the lessons and chapters some more, added things here and there, rewrote things to make them clearer and published them on my website, making them accessible through a paywall, for an immersive experience.

But due to problems with the provider for the payments and paywall – I had to rethink again.

The CREATRIX School consists of 13 chapters, each with 12 lessons, a recipe, a ritual, a practice, and a playlist, designed to be 4 weeks long – so all together the CREATRIX School guides you through your whole life in one short year, aligning with the energies of each season.

In each chapter you can learn how to become the conscious CREATRIX of your life and bring clarity, confidence and connection to your home, your body, your family, find clarity on your purpose, learn about working with the laws of the universe, or how to build strong communities and more – in short, you’ll become a conscious CREATRIX in all areas of your life. 🌸

It’s the course I know I needed but couldn’t find. 

It brings us back into alignment the rhythm of the sun and the moon, and helps us to unlearn what has limited us until now, work through personal and generational trauma, and it helps us to envision a life that is fulfilling and full of love, that makes us happy in our unique ways, and shows us what we need to create what we wish for ourselves now.

Not only that, but it’s a self-contained system complete in itself, and a gift from me and the spirit realm.

Because I had tons of support from my spiritual guides in creating this.

They always directed me, brought me resources or helped me to channel the necessary information.

In fact, I was really reluctant in starting this, because it seemed way too daunting to create something as big as this. I’ve written and edited close to 2000 pages for this in the last three years.

It’s wisdom from the stars, it’s directions on how we can all live happily and peacefully together – with each other, the universe and nature.

This year, because I want to make it accessible to all who are interested, I’m editing each chapter into a final version, which can be bought as a PDF through my website now as workbooks to keep and come back to forever.

Each lesson is an energetic transmission. Each lesson will not leave you untouched and invite you to open up to your true self, your highest self.

Here’s something a student wrote about a lesson from the body chapter:

“The exercise in this lesson is pure magic: I’m standing in front of this huge canvas; it’s actually infinite because I’m the painter, painting my future life in this world and there are no limitations. I have all the space I want, everyone has. The challenge for me is to capture this and to listen to my inner voice. I’m still learning to let it speak; not speaking because it thinks it has to earn the right to speak and if lucky maybe being heard… My voice doesn’t any longer have to earn this right, it never really did, and now I’m aware of that. So I keep on painting my future life with all the colours of the rainbow and of the Wheel of Colours.”

Each chapter is 102 to 138 pages long, and I just finished the 6th workbook last week.

You can buy each of the workbooks for €25, or you can buy the whole set, for €250. A new chapter will be released with each new moon until all 13 chapters are available. 

Additionally, you can also book sessions with me or join group Q&As to go deeper.

And to celebrate the release of the 6th chapter – I will share a part of one lesson, also from the BODY chapter, with you today.

Here we go:

Nothing we do happens in a vacuum.

If we try to find out how consciousness works, how life works, we find out that we are all connected and that what we think, does not only have an effect on ourselves, and on our bodies, but on all around us.

Research was conducted, that showed that when a monkey on a remote island learned a skill and enough monkeys around him or her copied this behaviour, at some point, when a critical mass had been reached, all monkeys on the island knew how to use this skill, without having to see it or to be in personal contact with any of the monkeys who knew about it first.

And this is true for us humans as well.

Right now, we still live in a time in which most people base their lives on fear and avoidance.

Most people spend most of their time trying to prevent disasters, ageing, sickness, decline.

And, in a way, my search for answers, and that of many, was born exactly out of this mindset, out of the suffering it causes – as I knew there was an alternative to this.

I was born remembering the alternative, but I didn’t know or understand why people were basing their lives on fear, if they had other options, not knowing that most people don’t remember the things I remembered, or see the things I can see so clearly.

And because of this I’m here, to share what I remember, so that you can remember as well.

When we look closely, what we find is that if we choose to act out of fear, we keep ourselves in a state of addiction and limitation, whereas when we choose from love, we free ourselves more and more.

What’s the difference?

When it comes to our bodies, choosing fear would be: “I’m afraid I might get sick with old age, and I won’t be able to do the things any more that I love doing now. So I buy pills and listen to all these people who have things to say, and do what I can afford to keep myself healthy.

But I don’t know whether it’s the right thing or enough, so the fear of failure will be with me at all times.”

It’s a belief that is based on lack, and thinking that you can’t find the answers for yourself and so you need others, depend on others, who don’t always have your best interest in mind, to provide answers for you, that may or may not help, and that makes it seem like life is a weird guessing game, where no one can be sure.

Which it is not, because your inner voice and your highest self always provide perfect guidance.

Choosing love would be: “I embrace change and choose to enjoy every period of my life. I know how to love myself and my body, and how to keep my mind and body active, healthy and strong.

So I feel joyful about the changed perspectives I will get to encounter due to the passing of time and the experiences that go along with it. I will embrace every challenge that comes my way lovingly, knowing I can trust myself and my body if I take the time to listen and act according to the messages and guidance I receive.”

Because this is a journey back to ourselves, and to learning how to trust our bodies and our inner guidance.

The guidance is always there for us and with it the inner knowing, the certainty, and the letting go of fear. We just have to re-focus on that and practice it, to see that there really is nothing to fear.

We only struggle as long as we trust others more than ourselves.

So, if you feel so inclined, ask yourself: What are you still afraid of?

And how can you strengthen your trust in yourself instead of giving in to fear?

And remember that this is a journey, so just be on it, and don’t expect to trust yourself fully on day one. Instead, make it your goal, to trust yourself a bit more each day.

You know how they say that you find enlightenment as soon as you stop looking for it?

You will also find trust that way.

Just trust yourself a bit more each day, and you’ll arrive at complete trust sooner than you think.

Would you give this a try?

Scrolling through Social Media a bit before starting to write, today, I saw a picture of a lush garden, that said: “They can’t profit from self-sufficient people.”

And I feel like this is precisely the shift we are embarking on, when we shift from fear to love.

If people sell goods, services or medicines, that are intended for personal profit and not the highest good and well-being of all, they don’t just harm other people, they also harm themselves in the long run, because they use fear-based tactics.

Which makes both sides dependent on each other and on fear.

People who see other people as a source for their own profit, fear independence and self-sufficiency, joy, happiness, health and freedom.

If the marketing strategy is: “If you don’t have this, you will miss out and be lonely, or sick, or less cool”, and you believe that you can be any of this because of something you buy or don’t buy – you loose.

Because people who tell other people, there are things to fear, fear things themselves.

They need you to be in fear, to temporarily overcome theirs.

Your fear of missing out, of declining health, of being lonely, helps their fear of not having enough income, yet all sides are caught in a vicious circle, and the victims of fear.

When we start basing our lives on love, however, we can offer our goods and services and medicines from that place as well.

With the difference that instead of being fearfully dependent on each other – we can be lovingly and joyfully interdependent.

An example: 

“I can create art that people will always love and value – because I love and value it. I can create offers that can help people until everyone is healed and self-sufficient, and then I will find other things to do.

I can offer my time and my gifts because I know how valuable I am – and that my unique gifts will always be in demand.

And if one gift is not needed any more, then I’ll focus on my other gifts more or open up to new ideas to start implementing them.

I know, without a doubt, that I will always have ways to contribute in meaningful ways.”

And the same can be true for you when you approach life from fullness and not lack, from love and not fear.

Authentic beauty and contribution, unique ideas and expressions, are always in demand.

The more you live your genius, the happier you become, and the happier you become, the more people you automatically draw to you, who want to have what you have.

But to be able to do that, you have to value yourself enough to know you will always be in demand.

And all you have to do for that is to set the intention to build this value for yourself, like you build your trust in yourself.

Activate the colours of your life

To break out of a stressful life, you have to believe that you can.

To know that you will always be in demand, you have to discover and develop your gifts (and I’m here to help you with that, if you want).

To know that you can be a 100% healthy, mentally and physically, you have to believe that you deserve that.

I started on this journey because I didn’t want to be afraid any more, of my body who seemed uncontrollable, because of disease and age – yet for a long time, I also thought that I couldn’t allow myself to be healthy when others are not.

I found my way out of that limiting and self-harming mindset, by deciding to share what I remembered and discovered to heal myself, so that others can use their free will and learn about and use the same tactics I used to heal myself for themselves.

If they choose to do so.

You always have a choice. Just like I do and did.

But if we choose love over fear, and focusing on the desired outcome instead of what is now, then we also choose freedom over dependence.

Because then we get to decide what we want and can simply live that – and that’s what we learn to do in the CREATRIX School.

Change always starts with noticing that something isn’t working for us. I knew that the medical system could not heal my epilepsy, so I tried it myself, and succeeded.

But noticing what isn’t working for us is only step one.

It’s not enough. We also have to find out what will be working for us.

And for that, we have to develop a clear vision of what we want, and this is something that we have not been taught, and what most of us have not practised enough, yet, and so we often remain in the fear state instead.

We are trained to look at what is, and to react to that, instead of focusing on what we want and creating that.

Yet, it is only by CREATING a clear picture in our mind of how and who we do want to be and then working towards that, that we can actually become anything and everything we wish for.

Because this process of creation is so essential, the CREATRIX School is called the CREATRIX School, as you learn how to create your desired reality.

Not by looking at what is, but by envisioning what you wish for, committing to it and then meeting its vibration.

And I said this before, and I will say it again, because it’s so important:

If you don’t think that you deserve the very best, complete health, complete abundance, complete love and joy – then someone else is benefiting from that decision – someone who is happy that you are disempowered because they can
continue to exploit you, and use your fear to temporarily silence theirs – yet it keeps all involved ruled by fear.

No one wins in this scenario.

So, if you’re wondering about the division that is going on in the world, this is the reason why things are the way they are right now.

More and more people see beyond the fears, limitations and the lies we were brought up with, and don’t want to participate in a system any more, that exploits them and holds them in fear and limitation, but choose freedom instead.

And so those in power fear the imminent loss of their power, and try to keep it in place by creating more and more fear for the masses, to avoid facing theirs.

Yet, we get to choose if we allow for them to have power over us or not.

All we have to do to free ourselves is to step out of that game, and see it for what it is: an extinction burst that we need to let happen, but should give as little attention to as we possibly can, to avoid more damage than necessary.

The most powerful move is always to withdraw all attention from unwanted things.

And as many of our brains want to focus on something – if we don’t like what we see, and wish to create something else, and to free ourselves and others from fear – we have to create a clear picture of what we do want, as that way our mind and our subconsciousness can work together to create the results we want and be busy in constructive ways.

If we focus on what we don’t want, or what we have now, we keep that alive.

I would even go as far as to say, that what we have now, or what we call reality, has no meaning for our future whatsoever, other than, that it can serve as contrast or inspiration for what we want to create instead from now on.

All that really matters is what we desire because that is our soul’s wish for us, and with that, it is also a representation of who we really are.

What, how, who we are now is simply a result of doing as others told us, acting from our current level of consciousness and awareness, and a belief in lack, limitation and fear.

What we desire is ours already, we just have to stop keeping ourselves apart from it through our limiting beliefs.

Of course, often we think we want or need something, and it turns out that it wasn’t the right thing.

When that happens, all that means is that we have to try again, this time with the knowledge we gained from the first attempt. To create a better result.

And we repeat that until we actually reach a point of bliss and happiness.

So, if we want to be in alignment, with our soul, and live the life we came here to live, we have to begin to listen to our soul and what it wants and desires and then follow it to where it guides us.

And when we begin to understand who we truly are and start living as that, we find true happiness, our genius, our trust in ourselves and the universe, more and more.

Our feelings and our senses can guide us here. Our senses tell us what we like (what feels, looks, sounds, or tastes good) – and our feelings also do the same.

The better we feel, the closer we are to soul-alignment.

And if we are curious about what kind of future to wish for – we can also just imagine different scenarios and see which one feels best.

When we find one we like, we can start to visualise it, again and again, so that then, we can create it.

Where our attention goes, our energy goes.

And to come back to our bodies: If we focus on getting rid of body fat instead of being lean, if we focus on our disease instead of our health, what we focus on will remain, so we have to free ourselves from that, by focusing on the desired outcome and not what is.

This might be a stretch for you still, but as with everything, it gets easier with more practise.

Now, to allow for these changes in our lives and to actually start living our highest potential, can bring up another fear – that of distancing ourselves from the people around us who stick to their old beliefs.

And that is fair.

I’ve lost some friends over this, and I don’t have as close a relationship with other people as I did once. But that is nothing I regret one bit.

I’m doing my best of inviting everyone in, but I can’t expect people to do things they aren’t ready for, or that simply aren’t right for them and where they are on their journey.

I chose freedom and happiness over staying closely connected to people who do not have the best intentions, for me or for themselves, who are fond of their cage, or don’t consider that that they can really change so much more than they realize.

The most important people always remain and when we reorient ourselves, get to know ourselves better and find more joy, vitality, love and happiness, we can also always meet new people who do the same.

Nothing is won, if we stay stuck and unhappy, just because other people choose to do so, even if it is scary to step away from the crowd.

Because, and this is again very important, we are not just doing this for ourselves.

The freedom of all future generations depends on what we do and choose now.

If we choose freedom and happiness for ourselves, we are the first monkeys on the island, or at this point the second or third wave.

And the more people we inspire, the higher are the chances that it will ultimately spread to all.

Bashar, and other channelled entities say that we’ve already crossed the threshold to reach the critical mass. Higher consciousness is spreading at a level never seen before.

So for now, we can really focus on ourselves and build a strong foundation for ourselves, so we can be the lighthouses for others, and radiate higher consciousness out to all.

To practice this, just take a second and imagine yourself, free of pain, free of disease, free of fear.

How would you live?

What would you choose?

The more often you envision that, the closer you draw that into your reality.

Don’t look at what is and choose from there.

Start with your desire and then create all that is needed for that.

Again, the more you practice and allow, the easier it becomes.

We can only have a peaceful world, if each person in it is peaceful.

So we start with creating inner peace and teaching other people to do the same, until the monkey effect becomes activated, and it spreads even to those who don’t make the effort to consciously learn about it.

We do the same with love, with health, with learning how to live freely and interdependently.

We start by treating ourselves and each other as who we are:

aspects of god/universe/source in human bodies – divine and multidimensional creatures – with endless possibilities.

Our power lies in choosing wisely, as we know and see now, that where our attention goes, our energy goes.

And what we think of, we (re)create.

We have an incredible opportunity right now – to change not only our lives and fates, but those of all, by starting to value ourselves enough to live happy and healthy lives – and inviting, encouraging and inspiring others to do the same.

In the worst case, it will be just us who will base their lives on love and choose to live happy and healthy lives, and others won’t tag along.

But I honestly don’t think that will happen – many people simply don’t know that they have this opportunity yet.

So the best thing we can do is to show them.

For a while, humanity faced the possibility that our planet would self-destruct, that we wouldn’t wake up to our galactic origins, to the fact that we have, that we are eternal souls, simply visiting this planet for a brief moment, and that we would destroy our planet because of our human ego needs and greed.

But according to Bashar and others, we’re already past this point.

Now it’s just a question of how quickly we will all wake up, which simply depends on how much each of us who is ready starts living love-based lives now.

So you choosing love, health, abundance and well-being doesn’t just benefit you, it will contribute to the well-being of the whole planet.

Because all the solutions to all of our problems are already here  we just have to open our eyes to them.

Imagine a future, in which children are raised with unconditional love.

And a world in which everyone can love themselves fully and would not feel insecure about their bodies.

This world starts with you.

Imagine a future in which we know how to prevent and heal our diseases naturally and with scientists, healers and sages working together hand in hand, for optimal well-being.

Imagine a future in which we don’t limit ourselves by limiting our beliefs, and know how to be fully aware and conscious and joyful in the way we use our bodies to make this experience on earth the most joyful, loving and interesting it could possibly be.

It all starts with you allowing this for yourself.

You can contribute to creating this future by beginning to embody all that you wish for, for yourself, today.

There’s nothing you need, but to make it a conscious decision – to decide to be as loving and kind to yourself and to all those you interact with.

And to not blame or shame yourself, or others, when you’re not, or they are not, but to kindly and lovingly bring you back to where you want to be, whenever you drift away to old patterns.

Until one day you won’t do that any more.

Isn’t that something? Wouldn’t that feel pretty great?

You get to decide. Always.

But with this, I invite you to try to do what you can every day, because whatever you do for yourself, you don’t just do for yourself, you do it for all of us.

You are an example. You inspire others.

They see what you do.

If you are good to yourself and don’t lower your standards, they might dare to do the same. If you allow yourself to become independent of fear – they might dare as well.

And what a wonderful and empowered and loving and creative and kind world that would be!

And the best thing about this is, that it is the opposite of a sacrifice that you have to make for this.

You will sacrifice your suffering for love.

You will leave behind the shackles of the past – which were never yours in the first place, for peace.

It feels like correcting mistakes and setting things right, not like giving up something that was ever worth having.

You are a divine being here on earth, and you, and everyone else, deserves the very best, and nothing less. Pure health, pure love, pure bliss and abundance.

It’s all yours the second you claim it for yourself.

How do you feel now?

And with this I wish you a fantastic rest of your day and I hope that this is the beginning of a new chapter of your life.

The one where you will allow yourself to love freely and to have everything that you wish for.

And if you’d like some more support on your way to get there – join the CREATRIX School, order your Wheel of Colours, or book a session with me.